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c'est la vie, ca va?
Sep. 14th, 2009 | 11:40 pm
Salut mes amies!
Aujourd'hui, j'ai réalisé quelque chose. C'est la vie. Peu importe comment les choses semblent mal mai pour vous, il ya toujours quelqu'un d'autre moins bien lotis.
And I'll leave my crappy french there for the time being :)
But it is very true.
I've been feeling a bit confused and angry and panicky lately. Nothing very important caused it, but it seems major to me because it is my problem. But I still sit here and wonder why the hell I'm feeling like this when I KNOW I have friends who are feeling much worse and who have much bigger problems than me.
But that's also kinda part of the problem. I can't deal with my own problems, and my overseas friends who are going through a rough time and feeling down are too far away for me to give them a big hug and let them know I'm here for them. I can't help myself and I can't help them. Sucks pretty badly.
I've gotten so tired of smiling lately, I just want to cry, but I know that's just the frustration and lack of sleep talking.
On the flip side of the coin, things have actually been getting better at work (looks like the boss has got someone lined up to take on a few of the vacant positions *yay!*) and I feel like my art has improved a little, and my nan is looking a lot better than she has been - the dialysis is working *thankyouthankyouthankyou*.
I think I'm gonna be a little hormonal now.
WHY does everyone insist that I need to get a partner? WHY? I DO NOT WANT ONE. Is there something so wrong with that? I'm selfish and don't want to drag anyone else into it, is that so wrong?
My best friends dad is trying to hook me up with him DESPITE the fact that Dors has a GF sorta. Dors himself has been very...affectionate....lately and THAT is making me jumpy. Then my sister told me flat out last night that she wants me to marry Dors (dead serious) because he's like part of the family anyway and would make the best brother-in-law ever. Mum suggested last week that if I don't want a boyfriend, I should get a girlfriend instead. And the rest of my family keep harassing me about getting ANY boyfriend!
I just want to hang with my friends, do my art, sleep whenever I want/can and listen to my damn music. Is that so wrong? And I'm not in the best shape anyway - who the hell would want a girlfriend that spends most of her spare time having hot showers and laying down because it's too painful to do anything else?
I miss the affection sometimes (a lot atm), but I couldn't put someone through what I'm going through.
URUSAI NA! MOU II YOTTARA! YAMETEYO!
*Sighs* It always seems that I blog when I'm upset, ne?
I promise I'll do another blog soon about some jewellery I'm making <3
Bonne Nuit mes amies, je t'aime tous!
Aujourd'hui, j'ai réalisé quelque chose. C'est la vie. Peu importe comment les choses semblent mal mai pour vous, il ya toujours quelqu'un d'autre moins bien lotis.
And I'll leave my crappy french there for the time being :)
But it is very true.
I've been feeling a bit confused and angry and panicky lately. Nothing very important caused it, but it seems major to me because it is my problem. But I still sit here and wonder why the hell I'm feeling like this when I KNOW I have friends who are feeling much worse and who have much bigger problems than me.
But that's also kinda part of the problem. I can't deal with my own problems, and my overseas friends who are going through a rough time and feeling down are too far away for me to give them a big hug and let them know I'm here for them. I can't help myself and I can't help them. Sucks pretty badly.
I've gotten so tired of smiling lately, I just want to cry, but I know that's just the frustration and lack of sleep talking.
On the flip side of the coin, things have actually been getting better at work (looks like the boss has got someone lined up to take on a few of the vacant positions *yay!*) and I feel like my art has improved a little, and my nan is looking a lot better than she has been - the dialysis is working *thankyouthankyouthankyou*.
I think I'm gonna be a little hormonal now.
WHY does everyone insist that I need to get a partner? WHY? I DO NOT WANT ONE. Is there something so wrong with that? I'm selfish and don't want to drag anyone else into it, is that so wrong?
My best friends dad is trying to hook me up with him DESPITE the fact that Dors has a GF sorta. Dors himself has been very...affectionate....lately and THAT is making me jumpy. Then my sister told me flat out last night that she wants me to marry Dors (dead serious) because he's like part of the family anyway and would make the best brother-in-law ever. Mum suggested last week that if I don't want a boyfriend, I should get a girlfriend instead. And the rest of my family keep harassing me about getting ANY boyfriend!
I just want to hang with my friends, do my art, sleep whenever I want/can and listen to my damn music. Is that so wrong? And I'm not in the best shape anyway - who the hell would want a girlfriend that spends most of her spare time having hot showers and laying down because it's too painful to do anything else?
I miss the affection sometimes (a lot atm), but I couldn't put someone through what I'm going through.
URUSAI NA! MOU II YOTTARA! YAMETEYO!
*Sighs* It always seems that I blog when I'm upset, ne?
I promise I'll do another blog soon about some jewellery I'm making <3
Bonne Nuit mes amies, je t'aime tous!
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hum ho!
Aug. 18th, 2009 | 01:38 am
mood: 
sleepy
wow, been a while since i've been on here! been pretty busy with deaths and work and what-not; but i got 4 days off!! <3 it's day three now LOL it was so nice to not HAVE to do anything!
well anyways, i guess since i've last been on here a few things have changed. i'm a red-head for one! well, kinda - my hair's so dark that it's hard to get it any redder than this. this pic also explains why some of my friends say they can find me anywhere in a crowd - they just look for the short person who glows in the sunlight. mean aren't they? YOU KNOW WHO YOU GUYS ARE XD
oh and 'scuse the messy hair, i didn't actually brush it, just toss it up outta my face LOL
well anyways, i guess since i've last been on here a few things have changed. i'm a red-head for one! well, kinda - my hair's so dark that it's hard to get it any redder than this. this pic also explains why some of my friends say they can find me anywhere in a crowd - they just look for the short person who glows in the sunlight. mean aren't they? YOU KNOW WHO YOU GUYS ARE XD
oh and 'scuse the messy hair, i didn't actually brush it, just toss it up outta my face LOL
humm, what else...oh! I recently discovered that the dad of my best friend is doing his darnedest to try and hook me up with dors - despite the fact that dors has a casual GF and me being very much pro-single. =_= it was kinda weird, i noticed dors being a bit more affectionate than usual and complained to my sister that he must think i make a good pillow or something and she springs the whole "oh i forgot to tell you that his dad is trying to hook you two up" on me. nice one. thanks for the heads up. i mean i love dors, just not that way y'know? he's like family to me, and his dad is like an uncle to me! Although if i was ever going to love anyone else, i think i could love dors very easily.
funny how the heart has the capacity to love more than one person isn't it? i've found that even now there are 2-3 of my ex BF's that i still love just as much as when we were together, but there's room to love someone new in there still. maybe i just don't love them enough? although i think i do - after all, i wouldn't still miss them years later if i didn't, right?
I dunno what's come over the people around me lately though; two of my ex's are trying to get me to change my mind about being single, another friend has been dropping very big hints that he's available, some casual acquaintances i know have been cracking onto me when they see me around, and then there's the thing with dors. must be because spring is around the corner >_< everyone's gone and lost their minds because of it! or it could be because the weather is warming up so i'm shedding the layers of clothes, and they've all realised again that i have noticeable "accessories" :P
which brings me to another random point, BRAS! i SWEAR whoever designs those blasted things has never had to wear them! would it kill the designers to make something COMFORTABLE for a change? do they have any idea how sore the "accessories" can get at times?? they must all either be men, or AAA-cup women >_< and they never make anything cute looking in the larger sizes - heck, not everyone is a b-cup or smaller T_T if i didn't have to wear them, i wouldn't. NEVER. it's one thing i like about days off - i can bum around the house all day without having to wear a bra, and if any of my guy friends pop around they can like it or lump it, i'll do what i want in my own home ^_^ although bridie tends to freak out and try to shove jumpers over my head when that happens. she has a bit of a sister complex. she's even gone so far as to threaten any of our mutual friends who show any interest in me. i feel so loved.
btw, sorry if i just traumatised any of the guys reading this XD
ahhh it's such nice weather atm - so warm and sunny! we've had a very mild winter, and i think we won't really have a spring, just a scorcher of a summer! it makes me feel like doing nothing more than finding a sunny patch of grass and going to sleep int he soft breeze LOL it's so hard to drag myself into the office for work! i guess i'm not a very indoors kinda person - i love being outside when it's warm or raining! sometimes i wonder if i'm not part animal XD i have to have my glass doors open at all times in my room - i can't sleep if i don't have fresh air all the time; anyone else like that??
summer also means salad time! <3 much as i like soups and whatnot, i love salads more! my fave is prawn and avocado salad with lots of fresh, cool lettuce in it - anyone have any good salad recipes they wanna share? another good thing of living where i do is that it's farming land - so there's always lots of fresh produce year round!
huh, well it's kinda late here >_> or maybe i should say early....so i'm gonna head off before i ramble on anymore!!
<3
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haaah....
Jul. 23rd, 2009 | 12:57 pm
***this is just for stress relief, you guys will probably find it boring, so you don't have to read it***
Hooray for lunch breaks!!
Gomen ne miina-san's! it's been pretty hectic here the last week or so i've been AWOL a bit!
So lately there was a death in my boss' family. Not fun in the least, and even though my boss is a complete and utter git, even he deserves sympathy in times like this. so i've been doing what i can to support him. which really means i've been running the business, and making the handouts for the funeral.
that seems to happen to me a lot - last time it was a dvd slideshow for a wake. i don't mind helping out, but it does get very sad looking at photos of people recently dead all the time; especially as they're not strangers either :< but if it can give the families some happiness during a very sad time, then i'll do it as many times as i have to >_<
But it's going to be so busy over the next week with the boss gone - there's only so much i can do (well, actually i can do everything except large payments, and even then i still do those sometimes, but they're what are needed the most usually).
it's not really funny, but lately everyone has been refering to me as "the boss lady" - even the father of my actual boss D: i don't want that kidna responsibility!! i have enough to deal with working in sales, in the cafe, doing all the office work, dealing with customer complaints/warranty issues/general helpfulness stuff/payments, doing half the accounting crap, dealing with suppliers and reps, doing the ordering and stock control, IT control, reports, staff rosters, staff issues, payroll, and everyhting else - i do NOT wanna be babysitting my boss as well >_< gackt-damn it! if it starts to get like that i may run away =_=;;;
and to top it all off, my boss has been loaning me out to the other business' in the complex for all their computer issues :O i mean thanks, really, it's not like i don't have enough to do here at work; but i still can't say no, because they're all really nice people and usually the problem is something simple like port recognition, proxy server issues or router troubles >_>;; if you can help, you should help, ne?? that's what being human is all about IMO.
geh.
i was talking to my parents last night, and saying how my back has been a lot worse recently - the pains that i used to get in my face when i had an 'attack' (if the pains got to my face, it was a bad sign, meant it was serious), are pretty much constant these days; there when i wake up, there when i go to sleep; and how i was finding even a 30-40 hour week at work difficult to deal with. I've also kinda hurt my hip which doesn't help. but isn't that pathetic?? i get exhausted after such a short work week >_< it makes me very frustrated! especially as it means i don't have the energy for anything else after i finish work, and i can't get as much done at work as i would like. mum wants me to quit work and just concentrate on my studies - or move down with her and dad and go to uni there. i think she wants me close so she can make sure i do everything my doctor tells me to. i've never really been one for that kinda thing - i hate being told what to do and i only listen to my mum and one of my ex's XD
bridie also told them that i'm having trouble moving and that the times when i can't breath have been getting more frequent. i haven't told anyone about the spasms; i can imagine how much they'd freak out if they found out my arms and legs were jerking randomly, or my hands would loose grip and i'd drop things, or how occasionally my entire body would go limp and jerky :P oh, and the dizzy spells have been getting worse too - i get them even when sitting down now, which is kinda scary. it's been a real pain trying to hide this all from my family, friends and co-workers, but i don't think i could deal with the lectures =_=;; i guess the reason i'm putting it all in here is because i can't really tell anyone, but it gets too stressful just to keep it all in.
mum made me promise to go see my doctor and go to see a specialist soon as well >_< and dad want's me to get the slow release morphine patches to help me deal with the pain, and also go get pain management lessons - but i can't see the point. i mean the pain won't go away, the nerves and my back aren't going to improve (quite the opposite really), and i don't wanna trash my liver with drugs. it's not going to kill me, so why bother worrying about it? what happens will happen, what matters is how you get on with your life after that.
I think my best friend has noticed some things, but he also knows that i don't want anyone to know so he's keeping it all to himself. i'm kinda glad that my sister is always there since he can't harass me if she is, BWAHAHAHA!
hhhaaaaa.....look like my lunchbreak is over, and i have a lot of work to do, so i'll continue this when i get home :P
Hooray for lunch breaks!!
Gomen ne miina-san's! it's been pretty hectic here the last week or so i've been AWOL a bit!
So lately there was a death in my boss' family. Not fun in the least, and even though my boss is a complete and utter git, even he deserves sympathy in times like this. so i've been doing what i can to support him. which really means i've been running the business, and making the handouts for the funeral.
that seems to happen to me a lot - last time it was a dvd slideshow for a wake. i don't mind helping out, but it does get very sad looking at photos of people recently dead all the time; especially as they're not strangers either :< but if it can give the families some happiness during a very sad time, then i'll do it as many times as i have to >_<
But it's going to be so busy over the next week with the boss gone - there's only so much i can do (well, actually i can do everything except large payments, and even then i still do those sometimes, but they're what are needed the most usually).
it's not really funny, but lately everyone has been refering to me as "the boss lady" - even the father of my actual boss D: i don't want that kidna responsibility!! i have enough to deal with working in sales, in the cafe, doing all the office work, dealing with customer complaints/warranty issues/general helpfulness stuff/payments, doing half the accounting crap, dealing with suppliers and reps, doing the ordering and stock control, IT control, reports, staff rosters, staff issues, payroll, and everyhting else - i do NOT wanna be babysitting my boss as well >_< gackt-damn it! if it starts to get like that i may run away =_=;;;
and to top it all off, my boss has been loaning me out to the other business' in the complex for all their computer issues :O i mean thanks, really, it's not like i don't have enough to do here at work; but i still can't say no, because they're all really nice people and usually the problem is something simple like port recognition, proxy server issues or router troubles >_>;; if you can help, you should help, ne?? that's what being human is all about IMO.
geh.
i was talking to my parents last night, and saying how my back has been a lot worse recently - the pains that i used to get in my face when i had an 'attack' (if the pains got to my face, it was a bad sign, meant it was serious), are pretty much constant these days; there when i wake up, there when i go to sleep; and how i was finding even a 30-40 hour week at work difficult to deal with. I've also kinda hurt my hip which doesn't help. but isn't that pathetic?? i get exhausted after such a short work week >_< it makes me very frustrated! especially as it means i don't have the energy for anything else after i finish work, and i can't get as much done at work as i would like. mum wants me to quit work and just concentrate on my studies - or move down with her and dad and go to uni there. i think she wants me close so she can make sure i do everything my doctor tells me to. i've never really been one for that kinda thing - i hate being told what to do and i only listen to my mum and one of my ex's XD
bridie also told them that i'm having trouble moving and that the times when i can't breath have been getting more frequent. i haven't told anyone about the spasms; i can imagine how much they'd freak out if they found out my arms and legs were jerking randomly, or my hands would loose grip and i'd drop things, or how occasionally my entire body would go limp and jerky :P oh, and the dizzy spells have been getting worse too - i get them even when sitting down now, which is kinda scary. it's been a real pain trying to hide this all from my family, friends and co-workers, but i don't think i could deal with the lectures =_=;; i guess the reason i'm putting it all in here is because i can't really tell anyone, but it gets too stressful just to keep it all in.
mum made me promise to go see my doctor and go to see a specialist soon as well >_< and dad want's me to get the slow release morphine patches to help me deal with the pain, and also go get pain management lessons - but i can't see the point. i mean the pain won't go away, the nerves and my back aren't going to improve (quite the opposite really), and i don't wanna trash my liver with drugs. it's not going to kill me, so why bother worrying about it? what happens will happen, what matters is how you get on with your life after that.
I think my best friend has noticed some things, but he also knows that i don't want anyone to know so he's keeping it all to himself. i'm kinda glad that my sister is always there since he can't harass me if she is, BWAHAHAHA!
hhhaaaaa.....look like my lunchbreak is over, and i have a lot of work to do, so i'll continue this when i get home :P
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*faceplants*
Jul. 12th, 2009 | 09:01 pm
ugh, ever had a day where it all just....hits you? they suck don't they.
So i'm feelin' pretty flat atm - i'm dead tired, i'm suffering from the bane of all women, and after cleaning at work all day (homg the pain @_@ it's why i hate sundays!) i still had to drive to my nan's T_T i will admit though that i caved in and had a pair of panadol so i could get through work.
it really sucks - i love driving, i used to be able to drive for 10 - 12 hours without much of a break, but these days i can only drive 2-3 hours max a day, with LOTS of breaks D:
and so my nan lives 45 minutes away; but after about half an hour the pain has spread from my chest to my face, and i really need a break after the 45 minutes. we were at nan's for 3-4 hours, and then i drove home again, only after about 10 minutes i had the pain in my face again >_< that really sucked ass and i was so glad to get home and get outta the car @_@ the pain hasn't settled much, but at least i can zone out now without killing myself :P
and to top it all off, I helped nan clean and re-apply the gauzes to her wound; basically she's going into hospital tomorrow to learn how to do dialysis on her own. she'll be in there for 2 weeks, so this was the only chance we had to see her. In order to get the dialysis, she had to have a catheter inserted into her tummy, this was done 2-3 weeks ago and it's not fully healed yet so that was what i helped my nan with tonight. i know it'll make her feel so much better in the long run, but it's not very nice to see tubes and stuff coming out from a loved one's tummy, yano?
especially not my nan, since i'm really close to her - i spent as much time with my nan as i did with my parents when i was growing up.
it's days like these that i just wanna crawl into bed and never come out again except for pain killers and chocolate. and to kick my cats off my bed.
sorry for the depressing report today, just had to vent :P
So i'm feelin' pretty flat atm - i'm dead tired, i'm suffering from the bane of all women, and after cleaning at work all day (homg the pain @_@ it's why i hate sundays!) i still had to drive to my nan's T_T i will admit though that i caved in and had a pair of panadol so i could get through work.
it really sucks - i love driving, i used to be able to drive for 10 - 12 hours without much of a break, but these days i can only drive 2-3 hours max a day, with LOTS of breaks D:
and so my nan lives 45 minutes away; but after about half an hour the pain has spread from my chest to my face, and i really need a break after the 45 minutes. we were at nan's for 3-4 hours, and then i drove home again, only after about 10 minutes i had the pain in my face again >_< that really sucked ass and i was so glad to get home and get outta the car @_@ the pain hasn't settled much, but at least i can zone out now without killing myself :P
and to top it all off, I helped nan clean and re-apply the gauzes to her wound; basically she's going into hospital tomorrow to learn how to do dialysis on her own. she'll be in there for 2 weeks, so this was the only chance we had to see her. In order to get the dialysis, she had to have a catheter inserted into her tummy, this was done 2-3 weeks ago and it's not fully healed yet so that was what i helped my nan with tonight. i know it'll make her feel so much better in the long run, but it's not very nice to see tubes and stuff coming out from a loved one's tummy, yano?
especially not my nan, since i'm really close to her - i spent as much time with my nan as i did with my parents when i was growing up.
it's days like these that i just wanna crawl into bed and never come out again except for pain killers and chocolate. and to kick my cats off my bed.
sorry for the depressing report today, just had to vent :P
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o_o sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.....
Jul. 9th, 2009 | 11:25 pm
.....I know i should sleep. really. i have to open up the shop in the morning, finish the BAS, do some tax returns, do some payment summaries, got about 60 items coming that i have to goods recieve, have to sort out an employee's bank details....well...the list is never ending really =_=;;
but i just can't sleep D: i'm wide awake thanks to the endorphines and pain (i think i did too much at work today >_<) and i just have this urge to listen to music, work on some manga storyline and work on a few sketches i need to do. at this rate i won't get to sleep tonight at all T_T
ahhh! i was so excited this evening - i got all hyper and shouted at my sister that YAY! SATURDAY IS NEARLY HERE! I'MMA SLEEP ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL DAY LONG! ....only for her to point out that there's a guy coming to install a security screen on my balcony at 8am on saturday and that it'll prolly take him until midday to finish with the job.
oh sleep, i miss you so much! you're even better than adult-fun-playtime or final fantasy VIII, but harder to get T_T <-- my family compare me to a cat sometimes because if i could, i'd sleep 18 hours a day too. hwah i'm boooooored too >_< think i may go read "faerie tales" by raymond e. feist. awesome book. manages to tie in all common western fairy tales to a believable sci-fi/fantasy plot AND make it have a sad side to it :3 I dun like mushy crap in case anyone hasn't noticed LOL does anyone know where i can get an e-book of it?? i don't want to have to go digging in my boxes to find it <-- this is actually self preservation. i have 20+ LARGE boxes of books in storage and i'm not sure which one it's in.
I actually haven't been reading much lately at all. and when i do read it's only one book at a time :-/ i've re-read all the ones i've got so many times it's not funny. i can tell you the exact plot line and fine details of any of the books i own, even the charles dickinson ones, christmas specials, and the crappy teen romance novels my nan tried to make me read when i was a young'un :O I really need some new books to entertaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! recommendations anyone? preferably 500+ pages!
you know what? one of my cat's likes beetroot. yes that's right. beetroot. she's trying to steal my apple/plum/beetroot juice from me D: and it's not easy to resist because she's kinda big. like really big. and when i don't listen to her, she attacks my carotid arteries. with her SHARP POINTY TEETH o_o she's a freaking vampire, and she's a lot more scary than the pomeranian in blade trinity =_=;; it's why i never resist feeding her when she wants to be fed, it's a matter of life, death or furball.
.....ok so i'm rambling now, so i'mma gonna go and do....stuff...
o_o
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
peace out dudes!
p.s did you know that a "dude" is really the proper name of a male camels thingie? .....not so cool eh?
p.p.s why are camels the only one with a different name for a thingie? that's specie-ist right? other species should be special too.
ok, really gone now.
but i just can't sleep D: i'm wide awake thanks to the endorphines and pain (i think i did too much at work today >_<) and i just have this urge to listen to music, work on some manga storyline and work on a few sketches i need to do. at this rate i won't get to sleep tonight at all T_T
ahhh! i was so excited this evening - i got all hyper and shouted at my sister that YAY! SATURDAY IS NEARLY HERE! I'MMA SLEEP ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL DAY LONG! ....only for her to point out that there's a guy coming to install a security screen on my balcony at 8am on saturday and that it'll prolly take him until midday to finish with the job.
oh sleep, i miss you so much! you're even better than adult-fun-playtime or final fantasy VIII, but harder to get T_T <-- my family compare me to a cat sometimes because if i could, i'd sleep 18 hours a day too. hwah i'm boooooored too >_< think i may go read "faerie tales" by raymond e. feist. awesome book. manages to tie in all common western fairy tales to a believable sci-fi/fantasy plot AND make it have a sad side to it :3 I dun like mushy crap in case anyone hasn't noticed LOL does anyone know where i can get an e-book of it?? i don't want to have to go digging in my boxes to find it <-- this is actually self preservation. i have 20+ LARGE boxes of books in storage and i'm not sure which one it's in.
I actually haven't been reading much lately at all. and when i do read it's only one book at a time :-/ i've re-read all the ones i've got so many times it's not funny. i can tell you the exact plot line and fine details of any of the books i own, even the charles dickinson ones, christmas specials, and the crappy teen romance novels my nan tried to make me read when i was a young'un :O I really need some new books to entertaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! recommendations anyone? preferably 500+ pages!
you know what? one of my cat's likes beetroot. yes that's right. beetroot. she's trying to steal my apple/plum/beetroot juice from me D: and it's not easy to resist because she's kinda big. like really big. and when i don't listen to her, she attacks my carotid arteries. with her SHARP POINTY TEETH o_o she's a freaking vampire, and she's a lot more scary than the pomeranian in blade trinity =_=;; it's why i never resist feeding her when she wants to be fed, it's a matter of life, death or furball.
.....ok so i'm rambling now, so i'mma gonna go and do....stuff...
o_o
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
peace out dudes!
p.s did you know that a "dude" is really the proper name of a male camels thingie? .....not so cool eh?
p.p.s why are camels the only one with a different name for a thingie? that's specie-ist right? other species should be special too.
ok, really gone now.
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I survived somehow....
Jul. 7th, 2009 | 11:37 pm
Well I survived the LAN party somehow!
we stayed up till 5am @_@ then slept till 1pm, and continued playing games for another 3 hours after that :O A lot of our friends couldn't make it at the last minute, but it was still fun! although there really weren't enough people playing for the halo ninja to appear :( we played halo, DOA2, nitrokarts and i think naruto: the broken bond. next time we're definitely playing soul caliber II as well!! we also watched AVP:R <3
I love scary movies. Also things with vampires and werewolves too~! ahhh i wanna have an alien Vs predator movie day/night where we can sit and watch predator, predator 2, AVP, AVP:R, alien, aliens, aliens 3 and aliens resurection IN THAT ORDER! me and my sister own all those movies so it's all good :dance: If we had time i'd also throw in the ginger snaps triology, john carpenters VAMPIRES, vampires of los muertes, underworld, underworld evolution, the blade triology, interview with a vampire and maybe some trinity blood or hellsing :heart: of course, i'd need an entire weekend and a lot of caffeine to do that >_>;; so i know it's not gonna happen T_T
It's been ages since i've seen a good vampire flick! although i did watch this weird japanese or taiwanese vampire movie not so long ago that involved a bad cop turned vampire and some hookers and it was made back in the 80s judging by the hairstyles and leg warmers/spandex in evidence =_= Anyone got any good movies to recommend?
OH! and i also got the cutest set of toe socks and matching gloves today!
yes my fingers are kinda short - those are kid sized gloves XD people always ask me where i get the cute gloves from, and for the most part i tell them the kids clothing section of XXX store LOL
it actually makes it a bit hard to hold the big xbox controllers, i can't reach all the buttons on them, so i'm glad the xbox360's controllers are smaller!!
ah! before i forget, you guys should check out the "AutoShoujo" contest (http://news.deviantart.com/article/8458
Oh and i got the kirriban done :9
... i can't think of anything else, but, if i do i'll add it in later ^_^
we stayed up till 5am @_@ then slept till 1pm, and continued playing games for another 3 hours after that :O A lot of our friends couldn't make it at the last minute, but it was still fun! although there really weren't enough people playing for the halo ninja to appear :( we played halo, DOA2, nitrokarts and i think naruto: the broken bond. next time we're definitely playing soul caliber II as well!! we also watched AVP:R <3
I love scary movies. Also things with vampires and werewolves too~! ahhh i wanna have an alien Vs predator movie day/night where we can sit and watch predator, predator 2, AVP, AVP:R, alien, aliens, aliens 3 and aliens resurection IN THAT ORDER! me and my sister own all those movies so it's all good :dance: If we had time i'd also throw in the ginger snaps triology, john carpenters VAMPIRES, vampires of los muertes, underworld, underworld evolution, the blade triology, interview with a vampire and maybe some trinity blood or hellsing :heart: of course, i'd need an entire weekend and a lot of caffeine to do that >_>;; so i know it's not gonna happen T_T
It's been ages since i've seen a good vampire flick! although i did watch this weird japanese or taiwanese vampire movie not so long ago that involved a bad cop turned vampire and some hookers and it was made back in the 80s judging by the hairstyles and leg warmers/spandex in evidence =_= Anyone got any good movies to recommend?
OH! and i also got the cutest set of toe socks and matching gloves today!
yes my fingers are kinda short - those are kid sized gloves XD people always ask me where i get the cute gloves from, and for the most part i tell them the kids clothing section of XXX store LOL
it actually makes it a bit hard to hold the big xbox controllers, i can't reach all the buttons on them, so i'm glad the xbox360's controllers are smaller!!
ah! before i forget, you guys should check out the "AutoShoujo" contest (http://news.deviantart.com/article/8458
Oh and i got the kirriban done :9
... i can't think of anything else, but, if i do i'll add it in later ^_^
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HAPPY NEW YEARS!
Jul. 2nd, 2009 | 08:50 pm
Akemashite omedetou gozaimasu everybody!
Well, new financial year that is!! It's time for all the accountants, office workers and financially related people to losen their ties, party the night away, and then spend every other night of the next three months doing overtime to cope with the EOFY workload LOL
Unfortunately I'm one of those poor sods doing overtime ^_^;; hence my quietness on here lately!
I've been so busy and tired lately, that I've no energy for art or even cooking - my poor sister has been taking over the food duties (which is kinda poor me, because she only knows how to make toast and cereal. Seriously, she MICROWAVES PIZZA to cook it, and heaven forbid we have salad or vegetables @_@;; ) - however I do appreciate her efforts to help!
Ahhh so pooped. But you know what? I have a freaking LAN party to deal with tomorrow at out place - and apparently my room has been decided as the room for the second TV, which means tomorrow will be something like this: Work -> clean room -> pick up everyone -> cook -> stay up all night playing games and watching movies -> [next day] clean house. Ugh. I mean I'm looking forward to it, it'll be fun to brush up on my Halo Ninja moves, but all the work is just a bit daunting! And the cats may freak out with strangers in the house too =_=;;
I was gonna make steak and kidney casserole, and hawaiian pizza pasties - is that the kind of thing that guys usually eat in winter?? There's gonna be some alcomohol, so I wanna make sure everyone has something solid in their tummies (junk food, adrenaline, and alcomohol don't mix too well), but also something that's easy to make yano? I did think of japanese egg rolls, but a few of the guys hate egg and are somewhat vocal about it :P Suggestions welcome!
Oh oH!! My ears are past the danger period with ZERO sign of infection :3 Now they just have to finish healing up in the next dew weeks and then I can put some cool earrings in there! It's been a bit tender because my glasses do rub the new piercings a little, but I don't notice it unless i'm moving my glasses about ^_^ and it made sleeping difficult too D: I'm supposed to sleep on my side, but, I have new holes in BOTH ears, so I've had to sleep on my face LOL
Well I'd better go, I'm freaking tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!
Well, new financial year that is!! It's time for all the accountants, office workers and financially related people to losen their ties, party the night away, and then spend every other night of the next three months doing overtime to cope with the EOFY workload LOL
Unfortunately I'm one of those poor sods doing overtime ^_^;; hence my quietness on here lately!
I've been so busy and tired lately, that I've no energy for art or even cooking - my poor sister has been taking over the food duties (which is kinda poor me, because she only knows how to make toast and cereal. Seriously, she MICROWAVES PIZZA to cook it, and heaven forbid we have salad or vegetables @_@;; ) - however I do appreciate her efforts to help!
Ahhh so pooped. But you know what? I have a freaking LAN party to deal with tomorrow at out place - and apparently my room has been decided as the room for the second TV, which means tomorrow will be something like this: Work -> clean room -> pick up everyone -> cook -> stay up all night playing games and watching movies -> [next day] clean house. Ugh. I mean I'm looking forward to it, it'll be fun to brush up on my Halo Ninja moves, but all the work is just a bit daunting! And the cats may freak out with strangers in the house too =_=;;
I was gonna make steak and kidney casserole, and hawaiian pizza pasties - is that the kind of thing that guys usually eat in winter?? There's gonna be some alcomohol, so I wanna make sure everyone has something solid in their tummies (junk food, adrenaline, and alcomohol don't mix too well), but also something that's easy to make yano? I did think of japanese egg rolls, but a few of the guys hate egg and are somewhat vocal about it :P Suggestions welcome!
Oh oH!! My ears are past the danger period with ZERO sign of infection :3 Now they just have to finish healing up in the next dew weeks and then I can put some cool earrings in there! It's been a bit tender because my glasses do rub the new piercings a little, but I don't notice it unless i'm moving my glasses about ^_^ and it made sleeping difficult too D: I'm supposed to sleep on my side, but, I have new holes in BOTH ears, so I've had to sleep on my face LOL
Well I'd better go, I'm freaking tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!
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They're done!
Jun. 27th, 2009 | 11:34 pm
YAY~! I got them!
I couldn't get the new holes as far forward as I wanted because I wear glasses, and it took a bit to convince the lady that I wanted them to go up through the ear rather than through the back of it, BUT I GOTS THEM!!
I got a 14g hole rather than 16g this time :3 That way I can put belly-button banana bars through them once they're healed - BWAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh man they're gonan be so freaking cool
Anyways, here they are ladies and gentlemen!
(They're the stainless steel captive rings at the top)
And I almost forgot that I haven't shown you guys my haircut yet <3 so here it is!
I love the bangs >_< And this is the last time I can wear my hair out for the next two weeks
I couldn't get the new holes as far forward as I wanted because I wear glasses, and it took a bit to convince the lady that I wanted them to go up through the ear rather than through the back of it, BUT I GOTS THEM!!
I got a 14g hole rather than 16g this time :3 That way I can put belly-button banana bars through them once they're healed - BWAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh man they're gonan be so freaking cool
Anyways, here they are ladies and gentlemen!
(They're the stainless steel captive rings at the top)
And I almost forgot that I haven't shown you guys my haircut yet <3 so here it is!
I love the bangs >_< And this is the last time I can wear my hair out for the next two weeks
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:D
Jun. 27th, 2009 | 12:07 am
whee! i'm getting another pair of piercings tomorrow!!
only problem is that i can't decide where to get one of 'em >_<
any suggestions??
TO DO
Finish Yuu-chi's pic
Kirriban for Slay
"Alex" for Jacen
Fox girl for Chess
Character design for Bridie
Comic pages for Bridie
Oresama family chibis
Plushie ork for Bridie
A2 painting
Redo "Rebirth/Contact" comic
only problem is that i can't decide where to get one of 'em >_<
any suggestions??
TO DO
Finish Yuu-chi's pic Kirriban for Slay "Alex" for Jacen Fox girl for Chess Character design for Bridie Comic pages for Bridie Oresama family chibis Plushie ork for Bridie A2 painting Redo "Rebirth/Contact" comicLink | Leave a comment {5} | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend
hoo boy!
Jun. 25th, 2009 | 11:23 pm
Ugh, three hours of sleep last night @_@ Luckily I had a nice boring day at work!!
Really boring.
I got nothing to say about my day T_T
Hmmm but you guys might be able to help me with a little problem!
Anyways since i'm nice and happily single by choice i don't want a partner, and i tend to turn away all comers - male or female. I mean i'm way too selfish to get a parnter, even though sex is nice. BUT i've got a friend, a friend who was once a , um, friend with benefits >_>;; A long LONG time ago. He's made it through several boyfriends of mine LOL I really do like this friend, he's a total sweetie and has a good head on his shoulders; however at the moment he's also single and wants to kinda pick up where we left off. I won't say it isn't tempting from a purely physical aspect (hoo lordee!), but i don't want to hurt his feelings, and i really don't wanna go there again. I don't wanna drag a friend into a relationship i know they'll get serious about when i won't >_<
Any suggestions guys??
Also, how do i get people to stop doing that? I mean the wanting a relationship thing =_= It's getting irritating because they know i'm single by choice, and yet they think i don't mean it. If it's not ex's, then it's friends; and if it's not friends, it's random strangers or people i only just met! And now even my best friends girlfriend is getting nasty because she thinks i'm a threat to her DESPITE KNOWING I WANT TO BE SINGLE D:
What is the big deal people?? It's not like i'm pretty or anything! Do i have a sign around my neck saying "sucker"? Or is it just the boobs? I bet it's the boobs =_=
Sorry, this thing with my friend came right around the time when a female friend told me i was sexy and the thing with the best friends girlfriend happened/is happening.
Bah.
Really boring.
I got nothing to say about my day T_T
Hmmm but you guys might be able to help me with a little problem!
Anyways since i'm nice and happily single by choice i don't want a partner, and i tend to turn away all comers - male or female. I mean i'm way too selfish to get a parnter, even though sex is nice. BUT i've got a friend, a friend who was once a , um, friend with benefits >_>;; A long LONG time ago. He's made it through several boyfriends of mine LOL I really do like this friend, he's a total sweetie and has a good head on his shoulders; however at the moment he's also single and wants to kinda pick up where we left off. I won't say it isn't tempting from a purely physical aspect (hoo lordee!), but i don't want to hurt his feelings, and i really don't wanna go there again. I don't wanna drag a friend into a relationship i know they'll get serious about when i won't >_<
Any suggestions guys??
Also, how do i get people to stop doing that? I mean the wanting a relationship thing =_= It's getting irritating because they know i'm single by choice, and yet they think i don't mean it. If it's not ex's, then it's friends; and if it's not friends, it's random strangers or people i only just met! And now even my best friends girlfriend is getting nasty because she thinks i'm a threat to her DESPITE KNOWING I WANT TO BE SINGLE D:
What is the big deal people?? It's not like i'm pretty or anything! Do i have a sign around my neck saying "sucker"? Or is it just the boobs? I bet it's the boobs =_=
Sorry, this thing with my friend came right around the time when a female friend told me i was sexy and the thing with the best friends girlfriend happened/is happening.
Bah.
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LOOOOOOVE ~<3
Jun. 24th, 2009 | 07:47 pm
HOMG! They arrived! My new set of barbells and and and!!! So freaking awesome, so much cooler IRL than they were in the pics *heart* It's love I tell you <3
I think the black/steel cross is my fave, but they're all super good! So happy they came quickly! It only cost me $30 (including postage) for the entire lot! Now if only my sata HD casing I ordered 3 weeks ago would get here >_>
Ah man I am so freaking tired after the road trip yesterday, and my boss like up and disappeared for a few days and left me in charge of the shop (also, he only giving me about 2 hours notice before he disappeared). I think I'm gonna do nothing but sleep this saturday! I'm like, living on iced coffee's to keep me awake LOL
I'm so tired I only had raisin toast with peanut butter for tea ROFL
Ahh well! I'll just veg out tonight I think, I'm in the middle of catching up with all my asian dramas - but I'll chat if anyone wants ^_^
I think the black/steel cross is my fave, but they're all super good! So happy they came quickly! It only cost me $30 (including postage) for the entire lot! Now if only my sata HD casing I ordered 3 weeks ago would get here >_>
Ah man I am so freaking tired after the road trip yesterday, and my boss like up and disappeared for a few days and left me in charge of the shop (also, he only giving me about 2 hours notice before he disappeared). I think I'm gonna do nothing but sleep this saturday! I'm like, living on iced coffee's to keep me awake LOL
I'm so tired I only had raisin toast with peanut butter for tea ROFL
Ahh well! I'll just veg out tonight I think, I'm in the middle of catching up with all my asian dramas - but I'll chat if anyone wants ^_^
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The Unwanted roadtrip!
Jun. 23rd, 2009 | 04:15 pm
Ok, so to start off with, I'd like to say that getting up and out the door by 7AM almost killed me. I am NOT a morning person D:
Having to drive all the way down there (we were on a time limit to get there) I couldn't take any photos to document this little outing.
I made up for it on the way home LOL however out of the 500+ photos I took, I've narrowed it down to just a handful for everyone here!
Having to drive all the way down there (we were on a time limit to get there) I couldn't take any photos to document this little outing.
I made up for it on the way home LOL however out of the 500+ photos I took, I've narrowed it down to just a handful for everyone here!
This trip was epically BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING but it was fun hanging out with my sister - we decided that an AMV should be done of Gaara to "Yellow lemon tree" by fools garden. And I got to pick the music for the trip down, so that was good ^_^
Without further ado, here's our trip :O
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wow
Jun. 22nd, 2009 | 08:37 pm
location: In front of Halo 3
mood: Ambivalent
music: Gackt - Road
Ugh, I've had this blog....how long now??
And it occured to me that maybe I should write in it more >_>;;;
ANYWAYS! I guess I'll just kinda use it like a diary and try to write in it every day. Can't guarantee it'll be very interesting, but hey!
****************************************
So currently I'm working on two projects.
1. The picture for Yuu-chi that I never got finished for her comp, which I really wanna get done as she's a but down atm and I wanna cheer her up.
This is the progress so far:
I want to get this done soon, but it's hard when I have to share my tablet with my sister :P (The lazy bum should just get her own).
2. And this is the other project I'm working on. I really liked this pose, so I'm gonna do a canvas painting of it - this is just me working out the lineart and shading for the basic image. I'm thinking Acrylics, but I may do it in oils. It's one of my OC's Sai (such a smexy little ho XD).
Also, I'm gonna try and do a pose or two (just sketches) everyday to try and imrpove my eye for proportions and foreshortening :3
Aaaaahhhh I'm so freaking tired. I'm kinda pissed at both my sister and my boss. Every single F***ing time I get a day off I NEVER EVER get to sleep in or relax. Last time my sister forgot to pay the rent, so I had to run around on my day off fixing things up. Time before that she insisted on paying the bills (I gave her the money) and then forgot to, so they were late too - and it's ALL in MY name. And now tomorrow I have to get up and be driving at 7AM because my sister forgot to give something to a friend to take down to our brother; which means I have to now drive halfway to sydney to give it to him, and then back again. To top it off, my boss knew about this, and STILL was an hour and a half late getting back from his gambling, meaning i did an hour and a half of overtime (which I won't get paid for) when I should have been getting ready for the trip tomorrow =_= Wouldn't be so bad except he was also an hour LATE to work, meaning I was running the shop on my own for that time.
He does this every single day he KNOWS I have something to do.
It's up to like 5 hours of unpaid overtime this week alone!! And every. Single. Day. I have off, I get at least one call from work T_T
Bah. It wouldn't really be an issue except I don't sleep much, so I really do need all the sleep I can get :P And tomorrow is going to be just peachy - around 6 hours of driving when I start getting attacks after half an hour of driving, FUN TIMES WHEE!
That said, I got some red orange juice and pocky for the trip, so it's not all bad! And at this time of year it's perfect weather for a roadtrip! I'll have to charge my phone up so that if I see some nice scenery I can take a snapshot of it :3 And I'm making a roadtrip CD to listen to in the car <3 Since I'm driving, I get to listen to whatever I want LOL So lots of Gackt, Miyavi, Merry, Alice nine, Laruku, SID, Astroninjas and Shinee for me!
Anyways I'd better run! My friends are crying out for the HaloNinja to join their team :3
Ja ne!
And it occured to me that maybe I should write in it more >_>;;;
ANYWAYS! I guess I'll just kinda use it like a diary and try to write in it every day. Can't guarantee it'll be very interesting, but hey!
****************************************
So currently I'm working on two projects.
1. The picture for Yuu-chi that I never got finished for her comp, which I really wanna get done as she's a but down atm and I wanna cheer her up.
This is the progress so far:
I want to get this done soon, but it's hard when I have to share my tablet with my sister :P (The lazy bum should just get her own).
2. And this is the other project I'm working on. I really liked this pose, so I'm gonna do a canvas painting of it - this is just me working out the lineart and shading for the basic image. I'm thinking Acrylics, but I may do it in oils. It's one of my OC's Sai (such a smexy little ho XD).
Also, I'm gonna try and do a pose or two (just sketches) everyday to try and imrpove my eye for proportions and foreshortening :3
Aaaaahhhh I'm so freaking tired. I'm kinda pissed at both my sister and my boss. Every single F***ing time I get a day off I NEVER EVER get to sleep in or relax. Last time my sister forgot to pay the rent, so I had to run around on my day off fixing things up. Time before that she insisted on paying the bills (I gave her the money) and then forgot to, so they were late too - and it's ALL in MY name. And now tomorrow I have to get up and be driving at 7AM because my sister forgot to give something to a friend to take down to our brother; which means I have to now drive halfway to sydney to give it to him, and then back again. To top it off, my boss knew about this, and STILL was an hour and a half late getting back from his gambling, meaning i did an hour and a half of overtime (which I won't get paid for) when I should have been getting ready for the trip tomorrow =_= Wouldn't be so bad except he was also an hour LATE to work, meaning I was running the shop on my own for that time.
He does this every single day he KNOWS I have something to do.
It's up to like 5 hours of unpaid overtime this week alone!! And every. Single. Day. I have off, I get at least one call from work T_T
Bah. It wouldn't really be an issue except I don't sleep much, so I really do need all the sleep I can get :P And tomorrow is going to be just peachy - around 6 hours of driving when I start getting attacks after half an hour of driving, FUN TIMES WHEE!
That said, I got some red orange juice and pocky for the trip, so it's not all bad! And at this time of year it's perfect weather for a roadtrip! I'll have to charge my phone up so that if I see some nice scenery I can take a snapshot of it :3 And I'm making a roadtrip CD to listen to in the car <3 Since I'm driving, I get to listen to whatever I want LOL So lots of Gackt, Miyavi, Merry, Alice nine, Laruku, SID, Astroninjas and Shinee for me!
Anyways I'd better run! My friends are crying out for the HaloNinja to join their team :3
Ja ne!
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Miyavi petition - australia
Nov. 11th, 2008 | 12:33 am
location: Australia
mood: 
chipper
music: Miyavi - Boom-hah-Boom-hah-hah
Calling all aussie's!! I need your help - me and a few other aussie members of j-rock revolution are trying to get together a hand written petition for MIYAVI to come visit australia during his next world tour.
basically what we want YOU to do is sign a petition form asking him to come, and showing your support. then send them on to me and when we have enough, i'll pass them on in ONE BIG HIT!
so tell your friends, let any and everyone know who you think may be interested, and encourage them to pass this on to THEIR friends as well. heck, i don't care if you post this note at your clubs or gigs or whatnot! get the word out!!
the more support we show, the more likely it is that we won't be overlooked again! and if a major artist like meevers could come, then who knows which JR or VK band may be next
been asked if we may consider an X-japan petition after this, so if all goes well, who knows!
you can download and print off this petition form:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v250/C
and then PM me for my address to post it to :)
remember, get as many people to sign it as possible!!
cheers, celeste
basically what we want YOU to do is sign a petition form asking him to come, and showing your support. then send them on to me and when we have enough, i'll pass them on in ONE BIG HIT!
so tell your friends, let any and everyone know who you think may be interested, and encourage them to pass this on to THEIR friends as well. heck, i don't care if you post this note at your clubs or gigs or whatnot! get the word out!!
the more support we show, the more likely it is that we won't be overlooked again! and if a major artist like meevers could come, then who knows which JR or VK band may be next
been asked if we may consider an X-japan petition after this, so if all goes well, who knows!you can download and print off this petition form:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v250/C
and then PM me for my address to post it to :)
remember, get as many people to sign it as possible!!
cheers, celeste